Monday Morning With Dad..and a Couple of Adam Antics

I feel sick to my stomach. I've gone through all the emotions today. I went over to my parents' today for a few hours and spent time with my dad, mom, Bobby, Saran and her boyfriend Jeff and their new son Jamison. And while I was there, I mostly put it out of my mind. My Dad wanted to hold Abbey in the worst way but she screamed most of the time (she hadn't pooped in a couple of days but finally this afternoon she screamed it out!!). Adam is in heaven there because he can run around. My mom...she's doing pretty well...but I can tell she doesn't want him out of her site. He's not my husband, and I kind of know how she feels. I was fine the last couple of hours but suddenly I can feel that tightness in my stomach as I think about it. I'm trying to get better and shutting these thoughts off. Not good at that.

Dad said today he wanted to get a couple of goats to take care of the lawn. I think he was half serious! As I was leaving, he carried Abbey in her seat (screaming) to my car while Bobby took Adam. We got them in the car and I hugged my Dad and told him I loved him and told him I was selfish...I was so glad he had moved up back with me. He started to say something about this being where he wants to be...but BOTH my kids were crying so it was time to leave. I want to remember how in that milli-second I was at a little peace hugging my dad in his driveway with the sun shining and Adam going MAMAMAMAMOMMMM!! I want to hear his words in my head.

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Adam was helping my mom in her dirt with tools...and took a hand shovel full of dirt and tasted it like it was ice cream!! The he helped Bobby and Jeff measure between the posts around my parents' vineyard because they were going to put up chicken wire today around it. He loves doing the boy thing!!!

And while Bonnie was here, she chased Adam around like a dog barking. So...he will arff arff for you! It was so funny when she walked into the room...he started barking. On Saturday, he got on his hands and knees and started to eat like Bailey out of his bowl!! This after he walked out the front door while I was peeing and was sitting on the steps with Bailey and his bottle and his garbage truck. When I said "Adam Charles!" He looked at me and shrugged and made his "what??" noise. Him and Abbey help me get through the day with their antics!!!