Pain

On Monday around 5pm, I felt a pain in the right side of my abdomen that was mind boggling.  I tried to push through it because I had one kid in the tub and another going nuts and figured it had to subside. But it didn't.  I got the kids out of the tub and had to stop moving.  I tried every position I could think of, all the while convincing myself that this was not a miscarriage.

I finally called Todd and asked him to come home, something I've only done twice before ever.  I decided it must be some type of muscle or ligament pain since it was inconsistent with miscarriage, though it's a fear that's hard to completely erase.

Todd came home and told me to sit, he'd take care of things.  The best position was sitting with my back straight and my legs down.  After an hour or so, I could move without wanting to cry.  I spent the night sleeping on a recliner and by the morning, it was sore but OK.  I took it easy yesterday, but had to go to the grocery store last night, and now my abdomen and back are both sore.  I feel 7 months pregnant, not 13 weeks.  I haven't gained a pound, but my belly is getting bigger every day, stealing weight from the rest of my body....guess my muscles haven't caught up.

Adam knew I didn't feel well yesterday and tried to help me and cuddle me, telling me to "feel better, Mommy."  Bright spot in a crappy day.

Rarely have had had that kind of pain.  Maybe when my gall bladder went nuts.  I do NOT want to feel that again. I can't stand being helpless, either.