Eh

I survived that illness.  The funny thing is, once you're on the other side, it fades fast.  I'm still on antibiotics though that are tough on my stomach.  The occasional cough.  As sick as I whined about being, I didn't realize how sick I really was until I started to feel better.

February is starting to slip on by with Valentine's Day to work on for this week and Abbey's birthday.  We are feeling the crunch to figure out the house thing and on Saturday saw a house that if it had had a fourth bedroom or a large room for two kids to share, we'd be offering on.  It was perfect otherwise.  We hemmed and hawed, but four bedrooms is one of our biggest needs.  Abbey sharing with anyone would be a struggle and in a small room, impossible.  There was a den, but it was an amazing library with a fireplace and wood built-ins and a wet bar.  And it was right in the center of the house.  NOT good fourth bedroom material but would have been a awesome living space!   The week before we went to see a foreclosure that would need about $70,000 in work. It had potential, but it just doesn't feel right.   I will say with each house we look at, I look back and learn more.  At first, we were obsessed with land.  Acreage.  Now, we don't care as long as we have privacy.  We also wanted a pool, though it wasn't a must have.  Now, it's not a concern at all.... the kids are learning to swim at camp.  And as much as Todd doesn't mind a project in most aspects, it's kind of coming out that he doesn't want a project for a house.  We want something that's unique that's well made and been taken care of.  We do not care if it's "updated" if it's nice.

Here's the teddy bear Adam got me.  I love it.

A few weeks ago on the phone, my Mom told me she wanted to send me a girl gift and asked me some questions.  She's done it a couple times in the last few years...new socks, some clinique perfume lotion. It's thoughtful and nice.  I can tell she's excited she can do some stuff for us now.  So she sent me my first "real purse".  I was pretty excited.  It's a Dooney and Burke.  I had told her I had been looking for a good purse for a while, but I didn't expect this!

Then a few days ago, another Macy's box arrived.  My Mom sent me another gift....some Lancome makeup.  I was surprised and enjoy the thoughtful gesture.  Todd warned me with Mom, not to look too much into, something I should be well aware of.  But I do like that she's trying to do something to show me some effort.  It's no secret that we struggle and her taking off to VA upset me.  I'm over it, but I am cautious.  I will enjoy and appreciate the gifts and not put too much into it either way.

Getting up at 5am at the latest makes me eternally tired.  At least dinner is in the crock pot.  Those days are great, because dinner making is a stressful thing for me between Todd's tastes and his schedule and I want him to have something to eat after working 12 hours.  It snowed like crazy here for an hour and then the sun just peeped out before it started going down.  Just another winter day in Oswego.  I good nap right now.  Adam is in his room watching Tom and Jerry on Todd's computer and Abbey is ripping her room apart and Ellie is waking up from her nap.

Ellie has been drinking bottles...LOVING bottles.  I nurse her at 5am and 7/8pm but she prefers the bottle now.  It's getting to be a struggle and I don't know if we'll make the ten months.  She just wants to be independent.  Another one.  Hard to let go emotionally as I'll never have the opportunity again and more practically, she's small and gets colds and it's supposed to be her best medicine.  Though in the last few weeks, since she started lapping up the formula, she's rounding out.  It's possible my thyroid medication was giving her a hot metabolism.  I don't know.  It is what it is.